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In this blog I want to tell you about my break from blogging.
Most of you know I started my blog some time last year. It was amazing starting something new and I loved it! I was putting out a new blog at least twice a week. Then all of sudden I could feel the slack coming in, the procrastination.
I soon found out I was pregnant! It was a wonderful moment because I was really wanting a little girl this go around. The first couple weeks I was feeling great ! I did not feel any morning sickness or anything. Then within the 6th week of pregnancy I became deathly ill. I was throwing up from morning till night. I couldn’t hold anything down. I had to go to the hospital 6 times because I would become so dehydrated. I would have terrible muscle spasms. In one moment my leg cramped up so bad I couldn’t walk. I would go days without eating because I could not keep anything down AT ALL!
Frustration started to kick in because no matter what the doctors prescribed it didn’t seem to work. I literally felt I was going to die and lose this baby! I didn’t know how it was getting anything it needed because I was so sick. I went into a depression. I couldn’t even take care of my boys. They were always by my side when I went to puke my guts up. I stayed in bed almost the entire pregnancy and the little strength I could muster up only lasted a couple hours. I loss all the weight I originally had. My whole pregnancy I kept losing weight my lowest was 120 when I was originally 135. Every time I went to see the doctor and they weighed me I only gained a pound or two.
In my heart I knew I was having a little girl! Who else could put you through so much (lol). When we went to get the ultrasound to find out what we were having I was for sure right! We were finally getting a princess! When we first got pregnant my husband wanted a little girl first but I wasn’t ready for a girl. I told myself if I were to have a girl she would have to come tell me her name because I could not think of a girl name that I could stick with. So one night I had a dream and a little angel came to me and told me to call her Gia Kate. I fell in love with it immediately, I googled the name and it came up as God’s gracious gift. I can say right now she definitely is!
Through the rest of the pregnancy I was still sick and still sinking into depression. I got into a routine where I would take at least 30 showers a day! I would sit in there until the water turned cold. It was the only way I didn’t feel so sick! I started feeling alone because no one would believe how sick I was. I felt like I was slipping away. I was not myself and I had no idea how to find her. It was the longest 9 months in my life!
Finally when it came time to have baby girl contractions were terrible. I got checked in and was crying until they wheeled me into surgery! I didn’t even get to have my husband with me and they put me to sleep this go around. I was so scared.
When I woke up there they were my husband and my new little girl! I fell in love immediately, she was so beautiful! All the pain and suffering for such beauty.
Why So Sad?
Now that part was over but I was still battling myself. I looked in the mirror and literally broke down. I did not like what I was looking at. I lost so much weight and I looked so sickly. I started feeling my husband didn’t love me anymore because how could he when I wasn’t loving myself. This pregnancy was the hardest on me I knew I had to recover fast because I couldn’t look at myself being this way.
It took some time but I was finally able to recover, thanks to my family. I prayed almost everyday, I did not think I would make it. I’m so thankful because I realized I wasn’t alone. I realized the strength I have. I realized that I overcame the most hardest moment in my life!
It did put a strain on my relationship with my husband. I didn’t feel like he was there even though he was. I felt like with all my trips to the hospital that he didn’t want to be there with me. But he was there.
I started shutting him out because I was feeling like he didn’t care anymore. I started shutting everyone out because all I was hearing is all you’re going to do is get sick. I was trying my hardest to not let this pregnancy get to me but it did. I didn’t feel pretty, I didn’t feel a pregnancy glow…I just felt pain, sadness, and loneliness.
You Did It
I can say I overcame a hard moment in my life.
I’m blessed to still have my family. My husband is such a wonderful man, I love the efforts he puts in. My boys have grown so much and I’m so thankful that God blessed me with them. They always made sure I was okay! I’m blessed for my baby girl we fought through this hard time together. When I look at her I see all my happiness in her sweet little face!
Life get hard, things become difficult but you’re always given choices to fix those difficult moments. Believe that you can get through them and I pretty sure you will. No one lives a perfect life. You never know what a person is going through or what they have went through.
God doesn’t give up on you so you shouldn’t either! If you know what you want in life go for it. Find your strength, believe in yourself, and have faith that you will succeed.
I’m excited for this come back!
I hope you all enjoyed this blog, God Bless.
Hello! It’s me and I was coming back to give you all the scoop of what happened to me.
See that was supposed to play in your head like Adele. If you read it that way good for you! If not you have no imagination.
So I bet some of you are like why did she stop blogging? Well, I’m here to tell you why. Just not in this specific blog.
This blog is a warm up to prepare you for August 1st!
I stopped blogging due to health reasons…basically I was puking my guts and I felt like I was going to die!
I’m going to prepare you up until my moment on August 1st. I definitely have a lot to say and explain. I’m sure many of you have been through it and are going through it and I’m here to help you. I bet you’re like, How is she going to help me!?
Well if you know me I’m all about positivity, no matter the situation and if I can give you some type of hope or positive feedback then I’m doing what I came to do.
So I’ve taken a bit of a break from blogging to work on myself.
I was feeling pressure because I wasn’t seeing as much progress as before and that’s when self doubt kicked in.
How can I help someone else if I’m not following what I’m putting out?
Seeing other people’s success and I’m stuck in my own self pity.
It’s so hard not to look at others people’s gain and see yourself at a stand still. Luckily, I was able to clear my head and focus on what needed to be focused on. When you go so hard for something and the outcome doesn’t quite meet your needs, you feel like giving up.
Once I took my much needed break I found the reason why I started in the first place.
I prayed to God and he gave me my answer and I’m so thankful for this new journey in my life. I can’t wait to share more about it!!
Stay tuned !!
There have been plenty of times that I’ve felt like I need to give up. Seriously doubting my expectations.
I have never been the one to just quit what I’ve started. Once my mind is made up I go for it. Giving up is never an option for me unless I HAVE to.
It’s hard to ignore negativity when you start something. It doesn’t always have to be directed towards you exactly but just the fact that it’s negative can kill your whole mood. Positivity is easier said than done. When you’re mind starts to wander away from the task at hand there goes your positivity along with it.
How to remain focused
Focusing can be hard for some because a lot of us can get really busy.
Some of us take on way more than we should and we lose track of the main focus.
If you work from social media like I am it can be quite difficult. People tend to say things on social media that they wouldn’t say personally. That can be a real mood killer (there goes your positive attitude) that you’ve been trying so hard to keep. Good thing about working from home all you have to do is log off. Simple.
The thing is people are going to say what they want regardless of how it’s going to make you feel. This is your first test: So let’s say you’re advertising or marketing a product. You’re telling everyone how wonderful it is and how much it’s changed your life and so on. Then someone says I wish people would stop sharing all this crap about them. Not everyone cares.
Okay so before you let that get to you remember the reason behind what you’re doing.
Remember that this person is not the only one who sees your stuff so even if you have repetition in some of the things you post this person is NOT the only one to see.
You’re doing what you love and you want to share it with the world! I like to think that if someone isn’t talking about you then you’re not doing it right.
For some reason I get satisfaction I feel as though I’m getting feedback and that motivates me to keep going.
Focus on all the things you’ve accomplished already. Looking back on how far you come should motivate you to keep moving, keep trying, never give up!
They say you should never say never, but in this circumstance NEVER give up!
Giving up what you love gives all the negativity, you’ve been trying to avoid, satisfaction.
Focus. Strive. Succeed.
Don’t follow the crowd
There are so many rules in life that we tend to stay inside the box. We tend to look at others and envy them.
I don’t like the word envy because it’s a sin.
When we are given an opportunity take it because it could possibly mean changing your life for the better. Don’t look at someone else’s success and wish it were your own because you don’t know where that person started to get where they are now.
Don’t look at someone else’s downfall and expect a come up because you don’t know what that person went through or is going through.
In order to be successful, you must follow the beat to your own drum. In time people along the way will help you get where you’re trying to be.
I know they say you should be a leader not a follower but I don’t believe it to be 100% accurate because you must follow in order to learn. Once you find a way comfortable enough for you that’s when you start leading and helping others that are looking for someone to follow so they can end up leading their own way.
I hope that made sense.
Be an example.
Lead by faith not by sight.
I’m coming to terms with why I started my journey. Each day I wake up and I see my wonderful husband and my two amazing boys. They are my true reason.
They keep me motivated and bring me all the joy and positivity I need.
Some days I definitely don’t feel like I’ve made any progress and I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s okay!
I know in the end my family is proud of me. I know in the end I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone and made an impact in someone’s life. I know by all my repetition someone is observing and seeing what I’m doing and maybe one day will decide to follow in my footsteps and make a change for their own family.
The fact that I know all these things just makes what I do a lot more fun and rewarding!
I wouldn’t have seen myself right now in this point in time with my own blog and my own business!!!
God works in mysterious ways.
When I couldn’t find happiness He gave me my family.
When I couldn’t find words He gave me my blog.
When I needed money He gave me my own business!
I’m very thankful and very appreciative for every opportunity God has given me. I am definitely looking forward to a better future for my family!
I had an inspiration and it started my journey: :The Start Of My Inspiration
My goal is that my husband won’t have to work ever again and that my family will be able to travel all over the world!
I am trying to make that happen.
Be all you can be, forget all limitations!
Focus on your main goal!!
Ignore the negativity or take it for what it is. Either way you’re doing your job!
Love what you do and Do it well!
Let success be in your future.
Do you ever look back at your journey and see how far you’ve come?
Are you satisfied with your progress?
What’s motivating you to do what you’re doing?
So you’re at the starting point. You have come to the realization of I need to do something and I need to start now! Probably after years of contemplation.
Okay so this is your beginning. This is where you start building your foundation. Whatever it is that you’re doing, you must go into it with a clear head. You are starting something you’ve never done before. You’ve made it pass your doubts and now it’s time to go for it!
Now, this is where your patience is tested. You can see your dream, it’s so vividly clear. You can see all of its outcomes and you see a bright future!
- Remember this is the beginning and everything takes time! If you can continue to see your future even when things get tough you’re on the right track.
Self doubt destroys dreams, remain humble and focus on the task at hand!
You Got This!
At this point, you start to see all of your progress! It’s quick because you see all of the hard work you’ve done to lead you to this point.
Keep Going !!!
As time goes on you start to see not as much progression. Continue to have the same enthusiasm you had in the beginning! Even a little progress is still progress.
Now you’re probably burning out. You don’t have the same spirit as before. You feel like giving up.
Well don’t because you need to remember what made you start in the first place! Maybe because you wanted to see a change in yourself or maybe you needed it for your family. Never let your light dim from within shine with all of you might!
Stay positive and keep your spirit high!
Only you can make a change in your life and if you let things get to you then you might as well hang your journey up because you have given up.
If you make it this far this means you are goal driven and your dream is still in sight!
You have grown. When you see yourself grow as a person it’s what make the journey well worth it!
You’ve given it your all and still going strong like you were in the beginning.
Now, even if you haven’t yet reached your goal the important thing is that you’re very close.
- Your mindset is in the right place
- You’re focused on the task at hand
- You’re making progress
- You can see you’re growth
Succession is only possible if you believe in yourself! Only you can make your dreams come true.
Make the impossible possible, Plant your seeds, Water them, and watch them grow!
Growth is tedious process but if you’re up for the challenge you’ll definitely be amazed at the progression.
The moment I decided to make this change in my family’s life I had serious doubt that I could make this work. I never sold anything in my life and the thought that people would even believe in me weighed on my mind.
Me, the quiet kinda shy type girl, selling something?
I decided to take this opportunity to give my family complete financial freedom! So we can enjoy the important things in life. Like each other. The opportunity came to me plenty of times but of course I was skeptical. I was also like “why do they keep bothering me about this?”
I’m really glad I kept them as friends because they are helping achieve a dream I’ve wanted to pursue for so long!
After I took the leap of faith, a wave of happiness and excitement immediately filled my body! I was determined to go after this dream and make my life worth living! It’s given me so much all ready!
The experience is what makes what I do fun! It has brought me out of my comfort zone. I’m actually working without having to actually go out and do labor!!
Putting passion into what you love is what takes you places. Consistency keeps you there. Motivation makes you stronger. Positivity makes you realize where you need to be. Repeat.
I’ve met some awesome people already!! They’re goal is to help you achieve your goal. That’s the best part about this company!
I also enjoy the satisfaction that people receive after trying our products because they do work! That always puts a smile on my face because I know I just helped someone who has probably been struggling for a while, feel better about their health and appearance!
So I’m not also helping myself, I’m also helping my community!
Focusing on the goal at hand has been pretty difficult only because people doubt, so that tends to diminish your confidence.
Staying strong and focusing on the importance of your goal is what will get you through.
My goal is to be all I can be. I’m shooting for the moon but if I miss I’m going for the stars.
I want to help others also who have been struggling to stand on their feet! I want people to see what striving for success looks like.
Positivity is the mindset.
Let’s Do This
I didn’t think I would get this far.
It’s been very difficult to focus. When you let the world in you have to be prepared for criticism. Even from the ones that you hold close.
Take it. Take everything that’s given to you and grow!! From positive feed back to negative criticism. It only means you’re doing what you’re supposed to do. People are paying attention and seeing you put action into your words.
It’s up to you to continue to strive, don’t stop when you’re tired. Stop when you are done.
Let’s Do the Impossible!